It's been a bit since I have posted. For one thing I have been incredibly busy with my family, slowly continuing to move in, and we have adopted some more animals. However, no matter the chaos, I can typically find time to blog. Lately, however, I have felt stuck. That happens every now and again.
I'm not exactly sure why I blog.
The joy of writing?
To stand on a self made soap box?
To encourage people?
Tear them down?
To cope with life's stresses?
To learn how to share my life?
There are so many reasons to blog. More than my small list.
If I'm being honest, well, the above list are the reasons I blog. Yup, I wouldn't mind a bit of popularity and I tend to think I have better ideas than other people. I'm a flawed person and some of my reasons for blogging are flawed as well.
I wonder if lately I have been blogging and doing it wrong. Some say, yes, I have posted inappropriate material. Maybe those people are correct. Or maybe I am the one in the right. Or perhaps it is what it is.
I don't blog to please other people. My goal, in every post, is to let you, the random reader, to look inside my life and get a glimpse of how the world looks through my eyes. I tend to be a bit blunt at times. This usually hurts people's feelings which is ironic because I'm a sensitive person.
I don't blog to hurt people. However, it happens. I have probably hurt people whether I am made aware of it or not. Sometimes I do feel the need to call people out. I'm not sure if that's right or wrong. Mr. Sexy tells me, as long as I'm writing in love, and it's a love that others can see, I'm doing okay. I'm pretty sure I don't always write from a loving heart.
So where do I go from here? I have had many blogs since I was a teenager. The two before this one were highly controversial. Is that wrong? I think sometimes controversy is a good thing. Although, for me, the controversy typically revolves around my family. That's pretty personal. The way I write about myself and my family causes me to wind up hurt, too.
So I will continue on. The hard subjects of spirituality, parenting, feeling hurt and angry are subjects I will continue to write about.
I'm still not exactly sure what my purpose in blogging is but I think it's what I'm supposed to be doing.